I got FM when I was in a car crash at 19. So it is called Post-Trauma FM, I also have Myofascial Pain Syndrome, am Bi-Polar, have Borderline Personality disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and a chronic torn meniscus of the left knee. I HAD to work, but at 32, had a nervous breakdown which led me to a near fatal suicide attempt at 33. I am unable to work, have no health insurance and no money. I've applied for Medi-Cal (denied) and SSD (denied 2x). I was told that I was turned down due to my extensive work history. Yes, I worked, but had NO quality of life. I have been on EVERY drug imaginable. Now I take Morphine ER 30mg tid, Morphine IR 15mg bid, Flexeril 10mg tid, Codeine 3 as needed, Paxil 10mg 1 a day, Lithium 150 mg @ bedtime, Risperdel .25 mg @ bedtime, and .5mg of Klonipin bid. I go to Alliance for Community Care for my mental illness but they dispense meds, not therapy or assistance. My PCP says I'm disabled, as does the Dept. of Rehab. I need knee surgery NOW (I've needed it for over a year). I live in Santa Clara Co. does anyone have an idea where I can turn for help? I am on my ALJ appeal w/ an attorney, but that could take quite a while for an outcome, which may not even go my way. I don't know what to do.